Home.

I debated writing a blog post about the events that transpired many miles away, many hours ago – not for lack of things to say, or desire to shut it out – but more out of respect for the entirety of the situation.

You see, the images/stories I see on television and the internet now are really hard to take in.  Maybe I have seen too many disaster movies and am desensitized to it all, but it’s still so hard to believe that this has happened.  After all, when I was a kid, I had an unusual fascination with events that others found morbid (Hindenburg crash, sinking of Titanic, eruption of Pompeii.)

But this time, it was different.  This is no movie.  This is for real.

I am so thankful that I heard about it all from my mom first, who sent an e-mail out and I read promptly this morning as my alarm went off.  I readied for work and called after I got there and all was well. The day went on as normal, and I switched between scanning for news on the Internet and doing other things to keep me busy.  It was a weird feeling, wanting to know more, but also wanting to stop thinking about it.

When I got home, I started on dinner immediately, but as timing worked out, we finished eating just in time to watch the NBC nightly news with Brian Williams.  The coverage of the earthquake was much more tasteful in my opinion in tonight’s broadcast, and for that I was thankful.  More eyewitness coverage, more real people conversations – more of what I needed, really!  It was still scary, but it felt more – well, like I said, real.  In a good way.

Later, reading twitter and scanning my Facebook feed, I was wavering again – was I mad at people that posted ‘normal’ stuff with no mention of the events transpiring?  Or was I relieved to see people being normal, and moving on with their lives?  Was I upset at what I sensed to be the false feeling of camaraderie on news story comments where everyone posted that they were ‘praying’ for the people of Japan, or was I swelling with pride that events like these can bring people together, no matter their race/culture/background?

I still don’t know.  (Which also explains my two very different blog posts tonight.)

What I do know right now, is this: life is precious.

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8 thoughts on “Home.

  1. I am so feeling you on the false sense of camaraderie. I’m grateful people care, but I also felt like they couldn’t empathize with what I was feeling. I grew up there and I hadn’t heard from my sister. So I felt ambivalent about it also. I think you probably put into words what a lot of people who grew up in Japan or have friends and family in Japan really feel.

  2. Yeah, all that stuff is unreal. In addition to people’s choice of ignoring these events, the Internet has exposed me to people who are downright mean about the whole thing.

    • Agree. Thanks for the comment – it’s good to hear about the people on the other side of the spectrum, too =)

  3. I don’t know how anyone can ignore something like this. I actually un-friended 2 people on Facebook due to comments that I am going to refrain from posting here. It makes me sick to hear and see certain opinions that are filled with ignorance and hate.

    I have a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that it takes disaster to bring people together. Every time something terribly sad happens, it humbles people, but only for a limited time. Compassion needs to extend beyond natural disasters or acts of terrorism. We should be extending kindness and respect every single day. Instead people are impatient, rude & it’s like they don’t get that life is fragile and can be taken away at any time.

    I have a hard time watching the events that continue to unfold. I feel helpless in the sense that I feel like all I can do is make a donation….and that makes me sad.

    • I know what you mean about feeling helpless. It’s getting harder to watch the news and think, “I could be doing SOMETHING” – yet, not really know what that SOMETHING is or how much it can help.

      Still, I think it is important to do our best to just hope, pray and support each other.

      Thank you for understanding and caring!

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