I debated writing a blog post about the events that transpired many miles away, many hours ago – not for lack of things to say, or desire to shut it out – but more out of respect for the entirety of the situation.
You see, the images/stories I see on television and the internet now are really hard to take in. Maybe I have seen too many disaster movies and am desensitized to it all, but it’s still so hard to believe that this has happened. After all, when I was a kid, I had an unusual fascination with events that others found morbid (Hindenburg crash, sinking of Titanic, eruption of Pompeii.)
But this time, it was different. This is no movie. This is for real.
I am so thankful that I heard about it all from my mom first, who sent an e-mail out and I read promptly this morning as my alarm went off. I readied for work and called after I got there and all was well. The day went on as normal, and I switched between scanning for news on the Internet and doing other things to keep me busy. It was a weird feeling, wanting to know more, but also wanting to stop thinking about it.
When I got home, I started on dinner immediately, but as timing worked out, we finished eating just in time to watch the NBC nightly news with Brian Williams. The coverage of the earthquake was much more tasteful in my opinion in tonight’s broadcast, and for that I was thankful. More eyewitness coverage, more real people conversations – more of what I needed, really! It was still scary, but it felt more – well, like I said, real. In a good way.
Later, reading twitter and scanning my Facebook feed, I was wavering again – was I mad at people that posted ‘normal’ stuff with no mention of the events transpiring? Or was I relieved to see people being normal, and moving on with their lives? Was I upset at what I sensed to be the false feeling of camaraderie on news story comments where everyone posted that they were ‘praying’ for the people of Japan, or was I swelling with pride that events like these can bring people together, no matter their race/culture/background?
I still don’t know. (Which also explains my two very different blog posts tonight.)
What I do know right now, is this: life is precious.