I knew I said I’d stop the monthly updates in December when you turned two, but after returning from three days at Walt Disney World with you and your sister, I couldn’t resist recording everything I feel today, at this very moment. I know, I know, it’s super predictable, but tears are welling up and I can’t help it. I am just so very proud of how much you’ve grown and continue to learn each day.
You’re a big sister now, and seeing you work so hard to keep Ellie happy is the best thing I have experienced. From proclaiming “she’s my little sissy!” to strangers at the grocery store, or running to fetch a burp cloth after Ellie spits up – it’s just hard to describe how I feel. There are millions of simple, solitary moments that might not seem like much to other people, but mean the world to me.
You have become so much more talkative in the past month – stringing together 3,4,5 and more word sentences, and excitedly sharing your work on the A, B, C’s and numbers. At Disney, you asked Minnie where Mickey was, Mickey were Minnie was, and Elsa where Anna was. You make me laugh so much, even when you’re stubborn; I remind myself that having a strong-willed child is a positive thing and that you’re still learning how to establish your limits.
There are days you argue with me. “No nap!” when I know you are extremely tired or “All done!” when you’ve had hardly anything to eat. You have great days with potty training, then forget sometimes, and have an accident, which upsets you. Know that I understand that it’s hard to learn so many things for the first time, and I always try to keep my patience with you, because you’re so special to me.
At almost two and a half, you have favorite things:
- Color: Blue
- Food: Macaroni and Cheese
- Shows: Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, Team Umizoomi and Paw Patrol
- Songs: Row Row Row Your Boat
- Character: Minnie Mouse
…and you’re not afraid to shout it out to anyone who will listen!
Speaking of fear – you’ve reached a milestone where you have learned what being scared feels like, as you experienced in the darkness of Disney’s Animal Kingdom this week when the “Rivers of Light” show came on. You told me you had to go potty, but as I carried you, you snuggled in and said, “mama, no potty. It’s just…I am scared,” as you pointed to the bright spotlights illuminating the water.
I told you, “that’s okay Abby. Mommy’s here, you don’t need to be scared,” and you smiled back, “Mama’s here. Mama’s here. Thanks, mama. I love you.”
As small as that event might have been, I felt, in that moment, that even though I know I won’t be able to solve all your problems in life, I would do anything to just be there for you. I am here, Abby, and I always will be.
I love you so much,